Alone

Often times I feel lonely here in my new town.  I don't have a vast amount of friends here and there's not much to keep me busy.  During the day when I'm by myself, I often experience that longing to have a companion with me.  Today I ate lunch by myself at Chick-fil-a and it dawned on me that in a few more months, I will no longer be alone--EVER!  I will have two little ones surrounding me whose very life depends on me.  As this realization dawned on me, an intense joy overcame me.  Right there sitting in a booth by myself in Chick-fil-a I made a new commitment--to simultaneously long to hold my two miracles as well as cherish this alone time that I have been given.  I want to enjoy my pregnancy and not rush through it.  This is a time to discover new changes both in myself and my babies and learn to be a mom.